When working on my next version of my ref sheet, I like to think about the 20/80 guidelines:

20% of the time gets me 80% of the way there

the other 80% is repeatedly questioning everything I’ve done, every interaction I’ve had with anyone and thinking, ‘well, that was a big mistake why did I ever think about reaching out’

the other other 10% I finally finish it and think, ‘wow i did it, somehow’

anyway the ref sheet still isn’t finished, so,

@flaw the 80% part is something i feel way too often, especially since i've done some egregiously terrible shit in my middle teens. i wanna be more open in the communities i'm in, but i fear someone will recognize me from those times and call me out on it, turning everyone against me.

this is partially why i changed my name: as a means of getting a fresh start (just like retiring the pony in favor of the wolf).